Choice - ??????????

Back blogging again after long, long, long time, at least it feels long. Last few years have been.. well they have been there and I passed them off. Cannot find a word to describe it. Its just complicated. Everything seems just plain simple complicated. Never could understand any of it and never will. You try to build something or make something, things just don't happen the way you want. What do you do?? Start from the scratch or just rebuild on top of it. Some argue start over, some say fix it. That's where we all falter. Choice... What to do? What to do? What to do?
          There is a base for everything. There has to be a base, a template, a silos, an original or whatever you wanna call it. There has to be something that you can build on, an idea or something.  First, its where do I start? then comes how do I start? then am I doing it right? and so on.. Why do we hesitate when we know what to do? Why do we hesitate when we planned how to do it and why do we hesitate when we know we have decided to do it? Choice. I think its the Choice that makes us question everything. We know there is always a choice. A Choice, as complicated as it sounds, is the sweetest thing. It puts us in dilemma of course but gives you a picture of what its going to be to what you want it to be.
          Knowing us we don't want to make that choice. The thing that scares us most is what's behind that veil. We don't want to take that leap of faith. We go for the other thing like the phrase says "A known devil is better than an unknown angel". Think about all the role models you look up to. Do you think they would have been where they are or were, if they hadn't gone with their choice which they started with instead of going the easy and simple one. Gandhi, do you think he knew he would be idolized by many around the world. He just started something based on his faith, in his beliefs and went with it. People followed him not for anything but his beliefs. 'Coz they are just like yours and mine. We know the unknown is scary, making that choice is scary but living with that conscious that you knew what you should have done but did something else, will kill you. You live rest of your life with that thing in your head saying you should have done that. Choice as annoying as it seems to be, is the simplest thing. Some might argue am happy with the choice I made even though its not what I had in my mind. No problem. Did you make that choice because you wanted to or did you take the easy route. Don't answer me, tell yourself and just so you know I am least bothered about it, you are the one living it. If you think you made the right choice, then whatever you started with, was not really a Choice. You just went with whatever came your way and are content with it telling yourself this is the choice I made. Otherwise look back and see if the base, the idea with which you started is still the same or changed.
          I am not asking you to change your ways or make that hard choice. Choices do change at times agree, but the choice you made is not for someone else or something else. Choice should always be for yourself. As selfish as it sounds, that's the best thing to do for the sake of people who love you and of course you too. I would like to hear otherwise, as always I take any comment positively.