Puzzle !!!!!!

Puzzled.. I always thought that's who I am, a puzzle waiting to be solved. I have been trying to solve it for sometime now. Lots of broken pieces that I accumulated over the years, at least that's what I thought, I was doing. Apparently, Its not pieces that I was picking up but, scrap. Funny thing is, the puzzle in itself is not complex, if you know how it should look, which generally we all have an idea. I have an idea just like everyone else and have a picture of it in my head but the puzzle I have is missing bigger chunks. Now puzzle just became complicated. I keep solving like this and it will always remain unsolved.
            Its funny how you lose yourself in a puzzle solving it, obsessed with it, unless someone gives that missing piece or I replace it with something else. All these years, never realized that every time I gave something, I am actually letting go a piece of the puzzle. I always thought I cannot expect anything in return. you give and that's it. I have seen people expecting something in return. I told myself, am doing it unconditionally. They are not. They have a motive behind what they do. But I understand now why. I guess its not wrong to expect things back. In a way, without knowing, people are trying to fill the missing pieces in their puzzles. They expect something in return to fill the gap that was created with the piece they gave away. So that makes them more complete, resolved and well designed. That makes me unresolved and flawed.
         If I don't understand Me, how can You understand me. I have tried to solve this with the pieces I thought would best fit but things don't work out all the time. I will keep trying to solve this Puzzle of Me. In this process, I might hurt some and If I do I want you to understand, that was never my intention and if you look closely you will see a piece of Me with you.. My intention was always to complete the puzzle, with a piece of You.